I don't want this blog to be about sad things. Or bad things. Or things that are unpleasant. But sometimes bad things happen. I want to be able to document how I cope with the bad and sad, so that when I get to the other side, I will see that I've triumphed, that I got through it, and that I'm stronger because of it.
Some may know, some may not...but I was injured 5 years ago at work. My life has never been the same. I have made some very bad decisions over the course of my healing. As a result I find myself in a place thats hard....very, very hard. I get depressed because of this. And this isn't the kind of depression that just goes away with a good nights sleep. It's the kind that lingers, that takes a hold and wont let go.
But as an artist, its important to get inspired, to stay inspired. That's a hard thing to do when you're depressed and there is no joy to be found.
That's where my Daughter comes in. She's the best thing I will have ever done, or ever do. Perhaps someday I will share the story of how she came to be with me. Because it was a truly a miracle...."A God Thing".
The other night we were texting, and she said she had a little video to send to me that her boyfriend had taken. The video didn't work, but I could hear the sound from it. It was her laughing, and laughing, and laughing. It warmed my heart, and gave me so joy. I just kept replaying and replaying it.
And it made me want to paint. Underneath the painting is a letter to her...a letter that lists all the things I love about her....
Her curly hair
But mostly I love her heart....
Love you LB, Mommy xo