Monday, September 26, 2011

mostly i love her heart....

I don't want this blog to be about sad things. Or bad things. Or things that are unpleasant. But sometimes bad things happen. I want to be able to document how I cope with the bad and sad, so that when I get to the other side, I will see that I've triumphed, that I got through it, and that I'm stronger because of it.

Some may know, some may not...but I was injured 5 years ago at work. My life has never been the same. I have made some very bad decisions over the course of my healing. As a result I find myself in a place thats hard....very, very hard. I get depressed because of this. And this isn't the kind of depression that just goes away with a good nights sleep. It's the kind that lingers, that takes a hold and wont let go.

But as an artist, its important to get inspired, to stay inspired. That's a hard thing to do when you're depressed and there is no joy to be found.

That's where my Daughter comes in. She's the best thing I will have ever done, or ever do. Perhaps someday I will share the story of how she came to be with me. Because it was a truly a miracle...."A God Thing". 

The other night we were texting, and she said she had a little video to send to me that her boyfriend had taken. The video didn't work, but I could hear the sound from it. It was her laughing, and laughing, and laughing. It warmed my heart, and gave me so joy. I just kept replaying and replaying it.

And it made me want to paint. Underneath the painting is a letter to her...a letter that lists all the things I love about her....

Her laugh
Her freckles
Her curly hair 
Her friendliness

But mostly I love her heart....

Love you LB, Mommy xo


  1. i love this painting and the secret hidden love letter inside of it. life is so hard and so easy and all at the same time, isn't it? strange, that. xo

  2. This is wonderful!!! What a heart felt post. I did a small journal page with all the "hard things" hidden underneath. It was the best thing I had done in months. I'm glad yours has your daughter's beautiful qualities. What a treasure!!
    (fellow flier!)

  3. This is such a great post about being inspired and about the sweet joy your daughter brings to you. What a meaningful painting.


  4. Pretty awesome post Kelly. I just love the connection of the art, the artist and the child. I like the birdcage piece in you have in the banner.

    I saw that you stopped by my blog. Thank you so much. I just signed up to follow you. I look forward to reading more words from your heart.

  5. Thank you Mommy. This is beautiful! I'm so proud of you for working so hard to overcome the hard times you've been through and I'm so happy and thankful that God gave me to you! You were blessed with an amazing talent and you're such an inspiration to me and to others out there. Please continue to get better and use this amazing gift that you have. We will get through this together. I promise! I love you to the sky and back! -Bug

  6. Thanks everyone for stopping by! Your kind words warm my heart, and encourage me so much :) xo

  7. Aw! Love your thoughts and love behind this painting.

  8. Beautiful! Made even more special by her comment up above.Love!

  9. ok, this post totally made me cry happy! Iknow first hand how hard depression can be. Seeing your relationship with your daughter is awesome! Mine girls are 3 and 4 right now and I hope to be as lucky as you with your daughter when mine get older. -Kelly