Wednesday, November 30, 2011

art everyday - 30

I havent been creating.  Its bad, I know. It makes me sad that I havent been creating. But the desire has been sucked away by a not so little monster called depression. It snuck up on me about halfway through AEDM and left me standing there without my paintbrush, or any inspiraton. I know its hard to read about stuff like this. But if Im going to be real....if Im going to be authentic...then this is me being real and authentic. So I wont be offended if you just want to stop reading now....I hope you dont, but if you need to not read this, then go ahead.....

Depression is a funny thing. Sometimes its a great catalyst for Art, for Creating beauty out of hopelessness...I find that a lot of what I create comes out of a place of great angst. Ive often said that I dont understand why my art isnt all dark and gloomy and sad. I guess it's just that little place inside me, that place that still has some hope
, screaming for its spot....just trying to be heard.

Lately tho there has been no desire to even pick up the paintbrush. My brain is mush, my heart is a bit numb. And Im having a really tough time finding any inspiration. There are glimpses, phrases I have written down, fleeting images that I know need to be put on the canvas. But right now it just feels so hard to even think about picking up the paintbrush, squeezing out the paint, and slapping it on the canvas.....not to mention the clean-up afterwards. So there they sit, there I sit with nothing....just empty canvases, both figuratively and literally.......

"Signpost" ©Kelley Miller

I am at a crossroads, with very blurry signposts.... And Im trying to decipher what they are saying. I do know tho that I have to be this thing called an Artist, I have to embrace it, I have to just decide that its who I am, no matter where I am living, who I am with, or how I am feeling, or where the road takes me. Remarkably the depression has actually facilitated this. It has made me stop dead in my tracks and take a good long look at who I really am, what I believe, and what I really want. I dont honestly know if I will ever get to be a nurse again. The one thing I worked for with all my heart mind and soul...and its not there anymore, and may never be. It breaks my heart.

There are so many other things that arent ever going to be what they were. So then now what?

"Heart in my Hands" ©Kelley Miller

I guess I just stand with my heart in my hands, trying not to look back and praying, praying, praying that the blurry signpost will become clear.....because right now it just isnt...

I hope for all of you that you find clarity wherever the road leads you.....

Kelley xo

Friday, November 18, 2011

art everyday - 18

After an internet meltdown due to a storm and a goofy router, and a bout with a 4 day migraine, I have been able to finally create again. Felt so great getting back to it after so long.

I was able to get some more work done on my "Winter" ATC's for a swap coming up. That little snowman is a stinker, and has given me a fair amount of grief. But I think we have made up, and we are both smiling now :) 

Im going to admit something to you now. My living situation is not something I want to become permanent. At one time I had hoped it would, but it has not worked out the way I had hoped. And because of that I haven't really put down any roots here. I haven't been able to just dig in, and settle in, and make it my own. Because of that, I dont have any artwork on my, zilch, nada. Tell me, what kind of Artist has nothing on their walls? Anyway, all of my things are still 2500 miles away sitting in storage. The plan was to ship them out here when I got "settled". Well the settled feeling never occured and that left me without things for my walls. Back home, I have all sorts of great stuff like Artist prints, vintage goodness, wreaths, candle get the picture. But now it looks like its going to take me quite awhile to get back home. So now I have to aquire or create a few things to make me feel like this is home for now. After beating myself up for the last year and a half for the stupid decisions I made, I am finally feeling like it would be an okay thing to have surroundings that make me smile, and are inspiring, and colorful :) 

So today I began to build 3 canvases just for myself. What they will become, I dont know. But I recently acquired some vintage wallpaper that I wanted to use, so I treated myself to that. The color isnt there yet, but I have big plans to add a lot. Im going to paint myself 3 big reminders to live my life now. Im done waiting for what it's "supposed" to become. And I'm ready to embrace what it is....

Hope you too, are surrounding yourself with a life that inspires you....

Kelley xo

Sunday, November 13, 2011

art everyday - 13

I have recently had the pleasure to be participating with my Awesome "Fly Tribe" on an ATC Swap. For those of you unfamiliar with ATC's (Artist Trading Cards), they are little 2.5 inch x 3.5 inch cards that have original artwork on them. It provides a way for anyone to own original Artwork. And what better than to own it than from people you care for and admire. In our trades we each make three ATC's, and each get three back. Our first Swap had a flying theme to commemorate our awesome "Flying Lessons" group. And the one we are currently doing has a "Winter" theme. I have been working on those cards today. Here is a sneak peek:

The aren't quite done yet, but they are just so fun to work on, I'm sort of savoring the process!

In other news, I got a bit of shopping done today. For me thats a big deal, because I DO NOT LIKE TO SHOP!!! But, when coupons are involved, and I can get Acorn & Fig Wallflowers for 75% off....Im there ;) I also scored at The Gap outlet. Its that time of year to break out the scarves, gloves and down vests, and only after one season here I wanted to add to my "Bundling Options". That's one of the things I love most about living in this part of the country....The Bundling Up!!

Hope your day is filled with wonderful Autumn Scents, and lots of Bundling Up!

Kelley xo

Friday, November 11, 2011

art everyday - 11

Today Ive made a bit of progress on this piece that I previously posted about here and here..... I added a bit more texture to the tree, inked in the cage, and gave my little birdie some color. 

I wish you could see it in this scan, but I used a bit of iridescent gold in the tree and a bit on the birdie....truly magical in real life :)

I have a phrase for this that came to me the other night, and it literally brought me to tears with the truth that the words held for me. Now my hope is to just get the phrasing right so it makes sense. I tend to over state and over complicate....but this one needs to be simple. So right now I'm pondering that....

Hope your day is filled with many open doors and wide open skies....

Kelley xo

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

art everyday - 9

Today is going to be little tutorial on how to make your own Glimmer Mists. Glimmer mists have become increasingly popular lately, especially in Art Journaling. But they can get expensive, sometimes up to 5 or more dollars per mist. So when I happened upon this video on how to make them yourself, I decided to give it a go. 

Supplies you will need:

Spray Bottles: I found mine at the dollar store in a pack that had 2 bottles. One had a squirt top, the other had a spray top. Still, they were only a dollar for the 2.

Craft Paint: I bought these at Walmart for 1.00 each, but I know with a good sale or coupons they can be found for less. I bought 4 regular colors, and 2 that were metallic to emulate the "glimmer".

Distilled Water: Some research I did says this is the best water to use, as it keeps the paint from spoiling.

Rubbing Alcohol: This is used to help the paint dry more quickly.

Perfect pearls: You can add a "paint brush dip amount" into the regular paint bottles to make it a glimmer paint if desired. 

The Recipe:

Fill the bottle 3/4 full with the Water. Add a splash of alcohol, and a good squeeze or two of paint. The more paint you add the more opaque your spray will be. Give it a good shake and let the painting fun begin :). 

Here are a few examples of some of the sprays in action. I sprayed on Gessoed pages of my Art Journal using some masking stencils.....

Blue Metallic

Regular Pink

     Green/Gold Metallic- I ended up adding a bit more paint to this one to heighten the color

Although the glimmer isnt apparent in the pictures it is very apparent in person, sorry that the camera couldnt pick that up.

Remember that overspray will occur, so protect the surfaces you don't want paint on. I didnt do that initially and my phone was a lovely shade of sparkly blue ;)

Overall I spent 13.50 to make 6 paints. I could maybe buy 2-3 ready made sprays for that price. Plus I can make more because I already have the paint. So at 2.25 per paint I think overall, this was a great deal!! 

I hope you give this a try and make some. And if you do, come back and share what you think.

I hope your day is filled with lots of glimmery goodness!!

Kelley xo

Monday, November 7, 2011

art everyday - 7

I cant draw, which is why I rarely sketch...but, I was going nuts laying on the sofa, trying to combat whatever this bug is. I was unable to nap and feeling a bit restless, because I feel as though if I give up on creating everyday, I wont keep going. So I drug my pounding head into my Art Room, and scrounged up my neglected sketch pad and a charcoal pencil. Remembering my post from yesterday, and the beautiful flowers in my new Blue Ball Jar, I decided to give it a go.....

Will it find its way to a canvas someday? I'd like to think so. In the mean time please be kind to this Artist that can't draw....I am sick after all ;)

Hope your day is filled with lovely sketches of things that make you smile.....

Kelley xo

Sunday, November 6, 2011

art everyday - 6

Today wasnt much of a Art Room day. But I found a few things that I hope will help "create" an Art Space I'm inspired to work in.  Although I'm still feeling "puny", I had to get some grocery shopping done. But the best thing about grocery shopping is that there is an Antique Mall right next I drug my puny self over there in search of shelving for all my Art Space, hoping to find something unique to put my printer and all my Art and packing supplies on. I found something a bit out of the ordinary, but oh so yummy.....

I know it doesnt look like much here, but this is a four shelf unit that stands about 6ft tall and is about 4 ft. wide. My best guess is it was used in a restaurant for storage of some sort.  But it is all sorts of chippy, shabby, rusted goodness, yet still very sturdy. Major Score!! And the best part, it was only $25.00....yeppers! Feel pretty good about that one :)

I have also been collecting Mason Jars, and found a couple that were pretty cool. A pretty blue "Ball" one and an older "Hazel Atlas" one with a great rusty lid and mechanism!

I filled the blue one with some flowers to brighten up my Art Space.....

Hope your day was filled with creating things that make you smile, and that you are all happy and healthy.....

Kelley xo

Saturday, November 5, 2011

art everyday - 5

Even though I'm feeling puny today (what my father in law used to call feeling sick), managed to get some progress made on this piece. I built the tree up with some tissue paper and matte medium. Can I say how much I love using this stuff?!! I do not know where I got it or how it showed up in my Art supplies. But I love it!! It's Dress pattern Paper without the patterns on it. It's just brown tissue paper, But its so fun to work with and layer. Very simple, but Ive always preferred simple.....

Now I'm off to wrap up in my Down throw which I love, drink some tea, and maybe catch up on some Dexter. Almost done with Season 5, and then I can watch this Season that's waiting for me on my DVR....

Hope your day is filled with warmth that surrounds you like a down blanket, and of course lots of Artsy goodness.

Kelley xo

Friday, November 4, 2011

art everyday - 4

Although Im not feeling like creating today, feeling overwhelmed and a bit sad, I created anyway. I had an assignment for a class I'm taking with Paulette Insall for the Divine Sisterhood class. Today we were supposed to fingerpaint with our eyes closed, in order to sense what God wants you to create. For a control freak like me, this was very hard. But I did it. I do know that I chose a lot of cool colors, yet the yellow is peeking through.  Not sure what it means yet. I dont see any images in it yet. But I have faith that all that will become apparent someday soon.....

And the cool by-product of fingerpainting is:

Hope you all have an artfully-delicious day......

Kelley XO

Thursday, November 3, 2011

art everyday - 3

Today was an Art Journal Day again. I created this as a companion to a Study I'm participating in with the Book "Captivating, Unveiling the mystery of a Womans Soul".  Its all ready to capture my thoughts and feelings......

Hope you all have a fabulously Art filled Day!!

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

art everyday #1 and #2....

Hey Everyone. Today's post is my leap into Art Everyday Month! I will be posting Art I worked on a bit yesterday, and today. Yesterday I wanted to leave dedicated to the Fabulous Blog Hop I was part of that you can see here.  So today is a Two-fer!! 

The first art is a sketch I made on Canvas. Normally I dont sketch, I just go for it, but this one has a few intricacies that I needed to map out. I have been led recently to do a lot of birdcages. Mostly the birds have been hanging around their cages. But not anymore. With the recent blog hop and all the inspiration from my Flying Lessons Sisters, I have been inspired to leave the cage and fly.....personally, spiritually, and artistically. So here is the beginning of that.....

I am also taking part in an Awesome Study of the Book "Captivating, Unveiling the Mystery of a Woman's Soul". Along with the Study, I am venturing into the world of Art Journaling. Hers is my first page for that. As a bit of an obsessive perfectionist with my Art, this is very scary territory, but very freeing. I loved creating my first page. It is created with magazine phrases, oil pastels, acrylics, alcohol, gel pen, and ink pen. Huge learning curve with this one, but it was very liberating just creating to create. So Fun!!!

So that's my entries for Days 1 and 2 of AEDM.  Check out the website if you would like to get more info or participate.

I cant wait to see what everyone else is Creating. It always so Inspiring!!

Lots of Love and Artsy Goodness, Kelley

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

flying lessons....

 I have recently learned to Fly. I'm not talking about the traditional flying, as in the air, in an Airplane. Although I dare say what I have experienced has taken me to heights farther than any Airplane could have. It has been a flight of Heart, Soul and Creative Spirit. 

Original Artwork by Kelly Rae Roberts proudly owned by Me
Last July I began taking a course from the Artist Kelly Rae Roberts. In a very short 5 years she has catapulted herself to greatness in the Art community. She is well respected, well loved, and oh so very talented. So when she offered a class with all the info on how she managed to do what she has done, I jumped on it. The class is called "Flying Lessons: Tips and tricks to help your Creative Business Soar". It was an amazing class. I learned, and continue learning so much about how to start and grow my little Art business. But the best component by far has been the Facebook group that Kelly Rae started for us. Little did I know the impact these amazing Artists would have in my life. And I dare say that I have made what I believe to be lifelong friends. Who can understand an Artists Heart better than another Artist? No one. The impact these women have made on me is beyond words and like most Artists, can sometimes only be expressed through their Art.

So that's what we have decided to do. Express ourselves through our Art. A group of us from this class, have decided to have a "Blog Hop" with the theme "Spreading your Wings". At the bottom of this post there will be a list of blogs connecting you to of some of the most Talented and Giving artists I have ever had the pleasure to know. We have each Created a Piece of Art that is inspired by our experience in the class, and in the Flying Lessons group. 

This is what I felt compelled to Create.....

I am so thankful to Kelly Rae and to this wonderful Group of Artists, for helping me open this door. For giving me the tools and confidence to step through the doorway, and leap fearlessly. For helping me to feel free to create, and dream, and to hope..... and Spread my Wings to reach all the possibilities that are out there.  I thank them from the bottom of my heart for helping me to see daily, that an Art filled life is possible, that living your Dreams is possible. That Spreading your Wings and Flying Higher than you ever thought you could, is possible.....

I encourage you to visit their blogs which are listed below. I KNOW you will be amazed and touched at the beauty that they have created. I know this because, everyday I have the privilege of seeing their Art. And it is not something you want to miss....

If you like what you see, don’t forget to subscribe, like and follow us!!!
Amaranthine Violet:
Beatriz Peñas B.:
Beth Cougler Blom:
Cindy Jones Lantier:
Hillary Courson:
Kris Lanae Binsfeld:
Liza Zeni Baker:
Stacey ChadwickBrown:
Teresa Cash-Czech:

Special Thanks to Michelle Reynolds for the use of her artwork (! For more info on classes by Kelly Rae Roberts visit or check out her new Hello Soul. Hello Business.
Thanks for hopping with us! <3 Kelley